Let’s try not to think about fairy tales. I’m just a normal girl—nothing special, ain’t extraordinary. I’m not pretty, nor elegant, nor gorgeous, I’m just me. I would always see myself traveling, taking pictures and eating with a same person all over again. Maybe a boy best friend, or a soul mate. I don’t know, I wouldn’t dare to find out because I might get hurt. It’s always like that, I see amazing stuff, feel it, ask advice, expect from it and get hurt later. I always get hurt, always. Yet, I never lose hope. I have faith.
I’d always hear, "You always talk about the bible and God." I wouldn’t answer, but I tell myself, I would never be ashamed of Him. I’ve been through the worst, no one had my side, and yet, He was there. If God is with us, who could be against us? Going back, never lose hope. If I fail, I’d take a rest. I would never stop. Stopping means giving up, and as long as I am breathing, the world would give me chances as much as I needed it. He will always provide.
I’m fat, I’m not white, I’m not pretty—so what? Yes, I may not have self confidence and self esteem to face people, but I love myself. He loves me and my family loves me, that’s enough. I’m slowly learning to embrace my flaws. So everyone, here’s me, and I am a proud God’s princess.

Let’s try not to think about fairy tales. I’m just a normal girl—nothing special, ain’t extraordinary. I’m not pretty, nor elegant, nor gorgeous, I’m just me. I would always see myself traveling, taking pictures and eating with a same person all over again. Maybe a boy best friend, or a soul mate. I don’t know, I wouldn’t dare to find out because I might get hurt. It’s always like that, I see amazing stuff, feel it, ask advice, expect from it and get hurt later. I always get hurt, always. Yet, I never lose hope. I have faith.

I’d always hear, "You always talk about the bible and God." I wouldn’t answer, but I tell myself, I would never be ashamed of Him. I’ve been through the worst, no one had my side, and yet, He was there. If God is with us, who could be against us? Going back, never lose hope. If I fail, I’d take a rest. I would never stop. Stopping means giving up, and as long as I am breathing, the world would give me chances as much as I needed it. He will always provide.

I’m fat, I’m not white, I’m not pretty—so whatYes, I may not have self confidence and self esteem to face people, but I love myself. He loves me and my family loves me, that’s enough. I’m slowly learning to embrace my flaws. So everyone, here’s me, and I am a proud God’s princess.

#self  #Jesus  
  July 27, 2014 at 07:25am

VIBE SERIES

Today was awesome. Although this post is only about my first time on High School service at Victory. The church was inside the cinema— and we didn’t plan to attend it though. So yeah.

Vibe series— Life is a party! 

The opening words were about Deuteronomy 31:6 “Be strong and courageous, do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you.

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#TomorrowLand was the last hashtag, two weeks before it was #YOLO and last week was #GoodVibes. Ha!

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The countdown, we actually entered the cinema this late but still had front row seats. Amazing God.

Here’s the story: I had my left foot sprained last week. So upon having that, I always pray and promised that if I get better, I’ll go to church no matter what. And then I asked my friends to go with me on a 6pm to 8pm service, no one wants to go. I said I might go alone. Then this morning, my ate said we will. But then we’ll watch a movie and we can’t attend the 6-8. Luckily, the movie starts at 4:40 and we arrived earlier. I saw the 3-5pm HS Service. I asked her if we could go there while we’re waiting, and she said yes. How amazing God is, right?

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(kuya) Kenneth— the lead singer!

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the girl bassist, been seeing her every single time tho. 

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Coach Lester Correa of high school service, everyone.

He shared Ecclesiastes 12:1 “Remember your Creator in the days of your youth, before the evil days come and the years draw near of which you will say, “I have no pleasure in them.

And I quote coach Lester, “What you’re doing today, will determine your tomorrow. Some people may know Jesus, but they don’t have a relationship with Him. Therefore, they only know Him by name and only what He had done, not who He is. They can still be happy and enjoy life without Him.” and he continued, “King Solomon—the wisest man on earth said, “Life apart from God is meaningless.””

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Let’s keep the faith burning!

  July 26, 2014 at 12:27pm

Christians and Catholics

These things are just my opinion, though I’m slightly inspired by my favorite pastor. I didn’t use the word ‘vs’ because if I say ‘vs’, I might compare religions and offend them. I’m a Roman Catholic, but I knew Jesus more through Christian Church.

Catholics—they hate it when we talk about Jesus or God. They say it’s too religious, too boring. If you preach the Bible, they wouldn’t listen. They go on mass every Sunday, listen to the Priest’s sermon and anticipate to the mass celebration. They actually believe it would clean their sinful souls. Well, on the other side, some people don’t attend mass and say they just believe in God and they pray. Either way, is that the “faith” you are talking about?

Christians are alive. They sing praise and shout Jesus’ name inside the church. But after that, do you still keep the attitude? Some don’t, mostly are. In a Christian Church, people know each other through friends or just even seatmates. They share God’s love and preachings, read the bible and share life stories of their own.

I’m not against any religion. We all believe in one God, one Jesus and the almighty Father. Hence, I do not say that you should be converted as a Christian to know God more. (But I did, seriously. When I started attending Christian Church, I had let God enter my life more. I knew Him better. I praised Him way more than before.) Just do what is good and you’ll be okay. Don’t forget to thank Him every single time.

#uh idk  #hahaha  
  July 22, 2014 at 05:22am

boringsville:

You guys!!! My blog turned three this year!!!! :D To celebrate (and to thank you guys for bearing with all my dramas for the past few years), I am having my first giveaway sponsored by Pachiko (no, not my bunny, lol). Two winners will receive a notebook, a coaster, some stickers, and a surprise item.

Here are the mechanics:

You must be following this and this.

Only reblogs count. You can reblog this as many as you want.

No giveaway blogs please.

Winners will be announced here on July 30 (so you have to check if you’ve won).

The items will be given only thru a meet up somewhere in Manila.

Winners should send me a message of their contact details w/in 2 days after the announcement.

Send me a message for inquiries.

(via biancadoms)

  July 21, 2014 at 06:32am

boringsville:

You guys!!! My blog turned three this year!!!! :D To celebrate (and to thank you guys for bearing with all my dramas for the past few years), I am having my first giveaway sponsored by Pachiko (no, not my bunny, lol). Two winners will receive a notebook, a coaster, some stickers, and a surprise item.

Here are the mechanics:

You must be following this and this.

Only reblogs count. You can reblog this as many as you want.

No giveaway blogs please.

Winners will be announced here on July 30 (so you have to check if you’ve won).

The items will be given only thru a meet up somewhere in Manila.

Winners should send me a message of their contact details w/in 2 days after the announcement.

Send me a message for inquiries.

(via radicalparadigm)

  July 19, 2014 at 11:44am

Today I got my foot sprained.

What the actual fuck, right? Trying to be formal and shit but I can’t. I’m really really stupid. It sucks big time.

  July 19, 2014 at 12:57am

3 days no school.

  July 17, 2014 at 07:25am

i. I don’t want you to think that I’m desperate enough to chase you after you left me hanging. I’m chasing you because I want a proper closure, not that I want the old ‘us’ back. What can I do if you already made your decision? I’ll accept and respect whatever it is.

ii. You never let me tell you whatever I felt. Our conversations are mainly about ourselves, people around us, cheering each other, plans, jokes and the corny pick up lines. There’s no confessions, whether it’ll be positive or negative. We never tell each other the feelings we have.

iii. Maybe because there’s no confession because you don’t have anything to confess. That for you, we’re casual. You talk to me, I talk to you. We’re friends— we’re only friends. I think you never knew I had one sided love with you. I don’t know if you’re numb or you’re just dumb. I am in love with you.

iv. Honestly up until now, I’m not really sure what ‘love’ really is. Love in a sense that you’ll have your partner, not friends love or family love. I know the literal meaning, but I never felt it for myself. I concluded that this is already love because whenever you’re there; my world slows down, my heart beats fast and everything changes. This isn’t like already because even if I see your darkest sides, I know I can accept you. Whatever you look, you smell, you drink, you eat, you think or what, I’ll love you, for who you are.

v. I know I told you that I never believed in love… but that was before you came. You made things different. I know I’m too young, but I’ll say this will be an experience. I want you to be my experience that I’ll hold on until my last breath. You’re the experience I’d take risks for.

vi. Love, I know what your priorities are. You told me everything. Which made me like you more, because you’re a man with big, big plans. I know ‘love’ isn’t a part of it, but can you at least give it a try, with me? I’ll understand you, I’ll support you and I’ll accept you no matter what. But no, I’m not begging you. I’m just giving you ideas that somewhere out there, there’s one special girl that would do everything she can for you.

vii. Where are our plans? The plans we’ve made, the plans I shared and the plans you’ve shared? Is it all gone? I wish it isn’t, it’s the things I hold onto. I cling into the talks we’ve made, and I always pray you would never forget everything.

viii. By the way, I dreamed of us last night. The people important to us was there, I saw beautiful flowers, and you, you were at the end of the aisle, I was walking slowly, the music was enchanting… and then I woke up. Anyway, I’m hoping someday this wouldn’t be a dream. I swear I’d marry you anywhere, anytime and anyhow. Simply because I love you.

ix. You know what, I’m so close to crying as I’m writing these right now. I’m starting to reminisce everything, from the way we met, the smiles, the booth, the drinks, the unlimited talks we had, the calls and everything. I’m sure this will hunt me until I fall asleep, crying. I want to go back to the way we used to be.

x. People kept on telling me to move on because I’m wasting time chasing after you. Sometimes I’d listen, but most of the time I don’t. Why? Because I think you’re worth the wait. You’re worth the pain. You’re worth it. If one day I’ll come to an end, I’ll ask for my family, my closest friends and of course, you. I’ll die happily.

  July 15, 2014 at 11:44am

#GlendaPH

Stay safe, everyone. Stay at home and pray for the people who needs to go outside. Pray to our Father! Also, do your school stuff already because I’m sure the teachers will make the most out of our suspension once we go to school already! Be ready.

Don’t forget our cameras! For the people (like me) who puts their slr anywhere, better put it in the cabinet and remember to put the lens’ cap because of the cold weather, there might be a moist-y stuff on our lens!

I suggest Up Dharma Down playlist for OPM and Ed Sheeran or Sam Smith playlist for International chill playlist for this kind of weather!

x, Bianca

P.S. I’m broke but hooray for new clothes. Haha!

#update  
  July 15, 2014 at 07:04am
They may die, but their scent remains— and they’re still beautiful.

They may die, but their scent remains— and they’re still beautiful.

#digital  
  July 12, 2014 at 10:23pm

Hey, captain!

I’ve been publishing posts on my reserve box (which is my drafts) lately because I can’t post much because: first, my working cousin has been using the laptop, second, I had my midquarters last week which made me busy (the reaults made my heart cry. I wish I studied harder) and third, I don’t know. I’m pretty emotional these past few days.

Really, I don’t know what’s happening to me. Maybe this is what they call transition? I think not. I’m losing time for myself. Yes, I keep on reading the bible and I’m praying every now and then, but still, I feel that I’m losing my faith. I’ll try to get back on track starting today or tomorrow. I’ll find myself.

Note: I’m (quite) different on facebook, twitter and here on my blog. Haha but Bianca is Bianca when you meet me personally! I’m a proud ambivert— yeah, I could be an introvert and extrovert at times.

Catch me on
Twitter: @biancadoms
Instagram: @biancadoms
Facebook: /biancacrizen

#update  
  July 12, 2014 at 05:18am

Mornings at Makati

#vsco  
  July 11, 2014 at 09:36pm

She

She’s the kind of person who’s emotions are easily found. What she shows is simply how she feels. She may hide my feelings that no one can notice how she feels; she does that sometimes. She’s insensitive— she knows it and she hates it. Insensitive in a way that she’s already numb about others’ feelings, but with herself? She’s too damn sensitive. She could cry so much and laugh out loud after. She can cry and laugh at shallow things (which psychologists believe that whenever people are like that, deep inside, they’re sad and lonely.) She doesn’t know why, but she’s like that. It’s her nature.

You know what she needs? Someone who can understand her whatever happens. Someone who can appreciate how caring she is, how she can sacrifice, how she gives importance to her loved ones; that everything she does has a positive effect on that someone. Someone who’ll never leave her behind. Someone who’ll never leave her for someone else. Someone who will stand beside her and love her, the way she is.

Despite of being with a lot of people, she’s emotionally alone.

  July 08, 2014 at 05:15am

Selfie lawd

  July 06, 2014 at 06:38am

At the moment! ❤️

Panorama photo: I’m shy but hey guys, this is my room. My brother and I used to share this room but then he always sleeps at lola’s room and lola is always not at home so technically, it’s mine! Can’t believe I’m messy like that. 😭 I guess I have to clean everything up later! Look at the 2nd and 3rd square: they’re the details. Haha! Honestly, sometimes I hope I had OCD.

First photo: “James 1:2-3.” ✨👆 My verse while reviewing for my midterms week next week! 📚 The last photo which shows my love for purple and my book. I started at 8 am and I’m still a bum. 😭

I wonder why we have midterms when I’m just a senior student…? Before, they called it prelims but yeah, everything changes, we just need to cope up and accept things even though it’s painful. (chos #hugot 😂)

I’ll start cleaning my room and review for 3 more subjects later! I pray for guidance on my time management, which I’m pretty bad at. Ciao! 💕

  July 04, 2014 at 11:18pm