I used to think that life gives us lemons because we must make a lemonade. But I was wrong, life gives us lemons because we must learn how to create extra ordinary things—not just one but alot of things—out of ordinary objects. To be creative and bring out the best in it, in us. Let us not predict what will happen to us in the future. Yes, there might be guts and feelings. Yet, we never know what really is it. There will be infinite what-ifs; just deal with it. Live it like you live with your clothes. When you’re about to break down and give up, think why you’ve fought long enough to get there; why you’re going to waste everything you’ve worked hard. Just remember: in order to see a beautiful rainbow, there must be rain.
Before and After. Wtf hahaha ganyan talaga pag nag take ng exams sa Physics. Hahaha lol
Puro “I love you guys” or “thank you guys” naririnig ko kagabi…. Hahaha!!
I just had to make a separate post for these greetings I got from tumblr people. Yay! 🎉🎈I didn’t expect people would greet me, I only have few followers (trust me, if I say it’s few, it’s really few). Saying “it’s my birthday” was just a trippy post, wondering if they would. 😂 Sorry, I’m so sentimental when it comes to little things like these. It pinches my heart and makes me so happy. 😭☺️
Finally turned 15 last August 5. ❤️ ‘til my 16th!
I always liked you from afar
Where no one else knows;
Except this beating heart of mine
I loved seeing you happy
Seeing you smile, giggle and laugh
Even if I stand meters away
One day, I may have the courage
To come up to you and approach you
To say the the words I’ve always wanted to
Without saying a word, you light me up
Like electricity powered the bulb
They’re connected, but quite far from each other
I enjoyed looking at you—as always
The bliss your presence give is priceless
And so is your precious smile
Everything has its own season
Might as well, I have to wait for ours
But, love, can I like you from afar?
Look at you, you’re someone they would describe as ‘tall, dark and handsome’ kind of man. Someone girls always loved. Someone talented enough. Your eyes are precious but very mysterious; and so is your personality. Those eyes were glitters; it wasn’t huge, but it sparkled. You had lips made of gold. Your nose fit perfectly on your lovely face. You aren’t someone who is a boy-next-door nor a sweet heart-throb, but you had something in you that turned my head. You had my eyes for I always looked at you—but not my heart—I appreciated you and I would say, yes, you are worth staring at; because staring at you means discovering your inner self. Who you are, what your eyes speak, what your mind thinks and what your heart says. Everything can be seen upon looking at you. Though, remember: it is not always what it is or what we see. Some things need more explanations to let us understand more.
I don’t know you; but I’d like to.
4 days before my actual birthday—I’m turning 15—and I am not excited nor happy. Thankful, yes, but I feel like having it just like a normal day. I don’t know, maybe because it’s our hell week and I still haven’t learned anything on all my major subjects? Or is it about my expectations? This sucks, big time.
I’ve got a lot of plans for August but I want to focus on my studies first. This August means: birthdays, back on track, bondings, shoots and more happiness. I wish I could. Because really, if I could, I really would!
Anyway, I’m not sure what’s happening in my life. There’s this guy who completely ruins everything without knowing that he does. No hard feelings for him, he’s a good guy (they said). They keep on telling me that “omg so obvious you like him”, like what?!? Do you guys know how I feel more than I do? Pretty amazing. But yeah, this shouldn’t be a big deal. Thinking of being friends with this guy but thinking of not to. Idk, but I guess God has plans for me.
I hope you all had a good august 1st! Unlike me, I don’t know if I did or if I didn’t.
Haha, have a good night!
Let’s try not to think about fairy tales. I’m just a normal girl—nothing special, ain’t extraordinary. I’m not pretty, nor elegant, nor gorgeous, I’m just me. I would always see myself traveling, taking pictures and eating with a same person all over again. Maybe a boy best friend, or a soul mate. I don’t know, I wouldn’t dare to find out because I might get hurt. It’s always like that, I see amazing stuff, feel it, ask advice, expect from it and get hurt later. I always get hurt, always. Yet, I never lose hope. I have faith.
I’d always hear, "You always talk about the bible and God." I wouldn’t answer, but I tell myself, I would never be ashamed of Him. I’ve been through the worst, no one had my side, and yet, He was there. If God is with us, who could be against us? Going back, never lose hope. If I fail, I’d take a rest. I would never stop. Stopping means giving up, and as long as I am breathing, the world would give me chances as much as I needed it. He will always provide.
I’m fat, I’m not white, I’m not pretty—so what? Yes, I may not have self confidence and self esteem to face people, but I love myself. He loves me and my family loves me, that’s enough. I’m slowly learning to embrace my flaws. So everyone, here’s me, and I am a proud God’s princess.
Today was awesome. Although this post is only about my first time on High School service at Victory. The church was inside the cinema— and we didn’t plan to attend it though. So yeah.
Vibe series— Life is a party!
The opening words were about Deuteronomy 31:6 “Be strong and courageous, do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you.”
#TomorrowLand was the last hashtag, two weeks before it was #YOLO and last week was #GoodVibes. Ha!
The countdown, we actually entered the cinema this late but still had front row seats. Amazing God.
Here’s the story: I had my left foot sprained last week. So upon having that, I always pray and promised that if I get better, I’ll go to church no matter what. And then I asked my friends to go with me on a 6pm to 8pm service, no one wants to go. I said I might go alone. Then this morning, my ate said we will. But then we’ll watch a movie and we can’t attend the 6-8. Luckily, the movie starts at 4:40 and we arrived earlier. I saw the 3-5pm HS Service. I asked her if we could go there while we’re waiting, and she said yes. How amazing God is, right?
(kuya) Kenneth— the lead singer!
the girl bassist, been seeing her every single time tho.
Coach Lester Correa of high school service, everyone.
He shared Ecclesiastes 12:1 “Remember your Creator in the days of your youth, before the evil days come and the years draw near of which you will say, “I have no pleasure in them.
And I quote coach Lester, “What you’re doing today, will determine your tomorrow. Some people may know Jesus, but they don’t have a relationship with Him. Therefore, they only know Him by name and only what He had done, not who He is. They can still be happy and enjoy life without Him.” and he continued, “King Solomon—the wisest man on earth said, “Life apart from God is meaningless.””
Let’s keep the faith burning!
These things are just my opinion, though I’m slightly inspired by my favorite pastor. I didn’t use the word ‘vs’ because if I say ‘vs’, I might compare religions and offend them. I’m a Roman Catholic, but I knew Jesus more through Christian Church.
Catholics—they hate it when we talk about Jesus or God. They say it’s too religious, too boring. If you preach the Bible, they wouldn’t listen. They go on mass every Sunday, listen to the Priest’s sermon and anticipate to the mass celebration. They actually believe it would clean their sinful souls. Well, on the other side, some people don’t attend mass and say they just believe in God and they pray. Either way, is that the “faith” you are talking about?
Christians are alive. They sing praise and shout Jesus’ name inside the church. But after that, do you still keep the attitude? Some don’t, mostly are. In a Christian Church, people know each other through friends or just even seatmates. They share God’s love and preachings, read the bible and share life stories of their own.
I’m not against any religion. We all believe in one God, one Jesus and the almighty Father. Hence, I do not say that you should be converted as a Christian to know God more. (But I did, seriously. When I started attending Christian Church, I had let God enter my life more. I knew Him better. I praised Him way more than before.) Just do what is good and you’ll be okay. Don’t forget to thank Him every single time.
i. I don’t want you to think that I’m desperate enough to chase you after you left me hanging. I’m chasing you because I want a proper closure, not that I want the old ‘us’ back. What can I do if you already made your decision? I’ll accept and respect whatever it is.
ii. You never let me tell you whatever I felt. Our conversations are mainly about ourselves, people around us, cheering each other, plans, jokes and the corny pick up lines. There’s no confessions, whether it’ll be positive or negative. We never tell each other the feelings we have.
iii. Maybe because there’s no confession because you don’t have anything to confess. That for you, we’re casual. You talk to me, I talk to you. We’re friends— we’re only friends. I think you never knew I had one sided love with you. I don’t know if you’re numb or you’re just dumb. I am in love with you.
iv. Honestly up until now, I’m not really sure what ‘love’ really is. Love in a sense that you’ll have your partner, not friends love or family love. I know the literal meaning, but I never felt it for myself. I concluded that this is already love because whenever you’re there; my world slows down, my heart beats fast and everything changes. This isn’t like already because even if I see your darkest sides, I know I can accept you. Whatever you look, you smell, you drink, you eat, you think or what, I’ll love you, for who you are.
v. I know I told you that I never believed in love… but that was before you came. You made things different. I know I’m too young, but I’ll say this will be an experience. I want you to be my experience that I’ll hold on until my last breath. You’re the experience I’d take risks for.
vi. Love, I know what your priorities are. You told me everything. Which made me like you more, because you’re a man with big, big plans. I know ‘love’ isn’t a part of it, but can you at least give it a try, with me? I’ll understand you, I’ll support you and I’ll accept you no matter what. But no, I’m not begging you. I’m just giving you ideas that somewhere out there, there’s one special girl that would do everything she can for you.
vii. Where are our plans? The plans we’ve made, the plans I shared and the plans you’ve shared? Is it all gone? I wish it isn’t, it’s the things I hold onto. I cling into the talks we’ve made, and I always pray you would never forget everything.
viii. By the way, I dreamed of us last night. The people important to us was there, I saw beautiful flowers, and you, you were at the end of the aisle, I was walking slowly, the music was enchanting… and then I woke up. Anyway, I’m hoping someday this wouldn’t be a dream. I swear I’d marry you anywhere, anytime and anyhow. Simply because I love you.
ix. You know what, I’m so close to crying as I’m writing these right now. I’m starting to reminisce everything, from the way we met, the smiles, the booth, the drinks, the unlimited talks we had, the calls and everything. I’m sure this will hunt me until I fall asleep, crying. I want to go back to the way we used to be.
x. People kept on telling me to move on because I’m wasting time chasing after you. Sometimes I’d listen, but most of the time I don’t. Why? Because I think you’re worth the wait. You’re worth the pain. You’re worth it. If one day I’ll come to an end, I’ll ask for my family, my closest friends and of course, you. I’ll die happily.
Stay safe, everyone. Stay at home and pray for the people who needs to go outside. Pray to our Father! Also, do your school stuff already because I’m sure the teachers will make the most out of our suspension once we go to school already! Be ready.
Don’t forget our cameras! For the people (like me) who puts their slr anywhere, better put it in the cabinet and remember to put the lens’ cap because of the cold weather, there might be a moist-y stuff on our lens!
I suggest Up Dharma Down playlist for OPM and Ed Sheeran or Sam Smith playlist for International chill playlist for this kind of weather!
I’ve been publishing posts on my reserve box (which is my drafts) lately because I can’t post much because: first, my working cousin has been using the laptop, second, I had my midquarters last week which made me busy (the reaults made my heart cry. I wish I studied harder) and third, I don’t know. I’m pretty emotional these past few days.
Really, I don’t know what’s happening to me. Maybe this is what they call transition? I think not. I’m losing time for myself. Yes, I keep on reading the bible and I’m praying every now and then, but still, I feel that I’m losing my faith. I’ll try to get back on track starting today or tomorrow. I’ll find myself.
Note: I’m (quite) different on facebook, twitter and here on my blog. Haha but Bianca is Bianca when you meet me personally! I’m a proud ambivert— yeah, I could be an introvert and extrovert at times.
Catch me on